With Easter being last week, I thought a lot about the sacrifice that Jesus made on the cross and I thought, "Am I content with what I'm giving to God?" You see, as a preacher, it's easy for me to think, "Well surely I'm doing my duty as a Christian. I preach on the weekends. I lead and participate in Bible Studies during the week. I'm often encouraging and counseling my church members and friends. I tithe. I'll even go out of my way to bake cookies or do some other random acts of kindness around town. I must be on the right track."
But then I take a step back and when I look at it... I enjoy all of those things. I would probably be doing them whether or not it was my job, but when I look at what bigger things I could be doing... things that I'm not very good at... things that I wouldn't be able to do without the help of God, I wonder, "Am I allowing God to use me the way that He wants to use me? or the way that I want Him to use me?"
I still haven't reached a conclusion, but I don't know that I'll necessarily like the answer when I do.
There are two major schools of thought bouncing back and forth in my brain:
1.) God has gifted me for certain things and I perform them adequately enough. This is the option that would certainly make me feel better about what I do for God and how I'm living my life. Clearly I enjoy talking to people, getting to know people, and meeting their needs. God has gifted me for it, and I'm doing it. Simple!
but then I think about...
2.) God is calling me to bigger and more difficult things, but I'm contenting and busying myself with smaller things. What if I'm supposed to be doing more with my faith than I currently am? I feel called to Culpeper for now, but am I supposed to focus only on my church or the people of Culpeper? Should I be starting new ministries? Could I hold a huge event that attracts lots of people just to begin sharing about the sacrifice that Jesus made? Or should I just be ok with handing out cookies at Walmart every few months?
Jesus said that the road to heaven is a straight and narrow path... there are tons of options, but only one way to the Father and that's through Jesus. I think the real heart of the issue is: Am I consistently doing things that glorify Jesus?
I'm sure it looks like different things for different people, in fact it looks like different things for just one person at different stages in life. But the question I think we all need to be asking ourselves is, if we've been given so much, what are we doing with it?